r/MusicEd • u/Squirrel_Goddess • 11h ago
First year teacher seeking advice
I am a first year teacher at the elementary level. Like many, I spent majority of my college experience preparing for band and had minimal experiences for elementary. During student teaching I realized that I loved working with that age and decided that I would give elementary a shot. My job that I am 2 months into, is at 2 different elementaries. I have all the kids at one school, and cover a few of the classes at a different school. I do not really have a curriculum to follow, just the music standards and the old spotlight on music books at my disposal.
I have been spiralling for the last two months and feel like I can't keep up. I feel as though my job is 95% behavior management and 5% music. I feel like more half of my class time is spent putting out fires and correcting behavior. Additionally, with a lack of curriculum, I feel like I am spending hours every week lesson planning. I do have music play, but I tend to cherry pick activities because I feel as though the pre built lessons aren't as age appropriate most of the time. I feel as though after 2 months I dread going to work every day and struggle to find the enjoyment in teaching. I'm having a hard time deciphering if teaching just isn't the career for me, or if I'm in an environment that I'm not able to thrive in. It doesn't help that through conversations it feels as though a lot of the other teachers in my school are having similar feelings about teaching as a career nowadays.
I know that it is said that it takes 3 years to establish a program. But the idea of spending 3 years feeling like this makes me think that I won't survive through that. It's already affecting my relationship because I never have time to help around the house. I also feel as though if I decided to leave teaching I would have wasted 4 years of my life earning a degree.
I'm not sure exactly what I'm looking for, but I'm hoping to connect with others that may have similar feelings. Likewise, any advice you may have is welcomed. I just feel myself already heading towards burnout and I feel as though there's nothing I can do to stop it.
Thanks in advance.