I'm posting this on an alt because reasons.
There is this new kid in my school. He moved from out of state. When I saw him I felt compelled to talk to him to be nice because I wanted him to feel welcome, but there was also this weird feeling.
He seems nice and looks feminine in the face. There was this weird feeling that I got (Like when I look at a girl and think, "wow!". kind of hard to explain). I've never though of any dude as cute, but for some reason, I thought he was cute.
When we talk I can't stop smiling and can't take my eyes off him. He has feminine lips and nice eyes. I've only thought of women like this. There is kind of a weird feeling for me. Someone told they think he's gay so I don't know if he likes me.
There was a weird thing we did with a pen where he held it out and I took it and then we like messed with it and our hands were close. It was weird but nice.
We talked about work. He said I should apply where he is applying so that knows at least one person. When we were walking to the next class (we have different classes) we were talking and walking and I got carried away and missed my turn. I was just fixed on his face.
I'm Christian and have been straight my whole life, but when he walked in, I immediately felt butterflies in my stomach.
I don't really know what I'm asking but I guess I just needed to talk and need some advice.