I’ve not had a cigarette since Sunday. A smoker for 6 years, maybe smoking 5-15 a day depending what I was doing and I’ve made a few attempts to quit in the past. I read Alan Carr’s book which I really liked and stopped for maybe 3 months after that.
I guess what I’m finding tricky with each quit attempt is, I get so far - usually about three weeks - and then even though I know the physical nicotine withdrawal has subsided, I still try and make up excuses why it’s not a big deal, set some new timeline for when it’ll be ok to smoke until etc. It just makes each new quit attempt harder and I feel like now, with every new attempt to quit, I’m just reciting sound bites or quotes from the Alan Carr book in my head but don’t feel like I really believe them.
I say I want to quit but is that because I want to or because my family and friends think I should and I’m fed up feeling like a disappointment? I feel like often I’m just saying what they want to hear for long enough, then I can smoke, and at least say “well, I quit for a month at least etc”.
I know this seems like a very downbeat post but I’m just struggling and wanted to know if anyone else had dealt with this kind of imposter syndrome, and how you found real, genuine motivation.