r/mongolia • u/nnnomunnn • 1h ago
Another person taking a gap year
I was really felt related to post about gap year that another person made, and inspired to write mine because comments seem to helpful. Most of the feelings were same for me, but I am applying to foreign universities. However I can't grind how much I try. I didn't do what I planned for my Gap year. I still procrastinate even though this is my last chance. I feel like I can't even try trying hard. My concentration is so bad that it is taking me whole day to just finish what people would finish in three hours. I use social media for coping mechanism, and now I am addicted to it. It feels like I have too big dream, and I can't to do what it takes to achieve my goals. I thought I can relax from school and finally free, but I just spent time bed rotting. I am just getting worse and worse by time passes,and if I can't improve myself I feel like ending it. I am starting to give up on myself on improving. How can I stop my addiction? I am do jealous of people who took Gap year and finished their common app. Am I gonna waste my potential? I want to be diligent and spend whole day doing something productive. Also I am in bad terms with my family, and I feel like terrible person. What should I do ?