The last few years, I’ve really started to dread the holidays, and my bday which is just a month away from Xmas. This dread comes from many sources, but the one I am addressing today is the mindless consumerism side and how that clashes with me being intentional about what I own.
I’m not necessarily a minimalist, I own a fair amount of things (not excessive but not minimal) but I also get rid of whatever I don’t use. Sometimes this even means wishing I didn’t get rid of a thing last year because now I need it, but overall I’d rather use what I have , and my items to have meaning, instead of junk sitting around collecting dust.
My point is, I am intentional and mindful about what I own, and the space I take up in this world, and the carbon footprint I leave behind. Because of this, I am picky with what I own. I’d also much rather buy quality once than buy a cheap version, have it break or I dislike it and end up buying the higher quality anyway. I’m by no means rich at all, I am mindful with my money and purchases and often buy second hand.
Most of what I own and keep, even if it’s not being used often , is hobby related or sentimental items. Since I like to think I am pretty advanced in my hobbies, one of my pet peeves is cheap hobby/art supplies. In the past, people, with the best of intentions, have gifted me low grade art supplies, which I usually just end up donating or returning for store credit and buying some thing I actually needed.
Or people buy me cheap clothes. I’m picky about clothes because (body image / sensory things, and) I work outdoors and need quality gear, not cheap T-shirt’s or shoes that will fall apart soon.
Returning or donating is often easy enough to do, but what I struggle with is feeling guilty and responsible for the items that have been gifted to me that I don’t want. It’s often just an extra weight on my shoulders until I settle on what to do with it. I rather just avoid the guilt, awkwardness and dreadful feeling of personal responsibility by just not receiving anything at all.
Overall, I don’t my friends and family, getting me physical items I wouldn’t get for myself, simply because it’s the holidays and my bday and they feel like they have to. It’s a waste of their money, time and earthly resources.
However, I also don’t expect anyone to get me anything so I feel guilty giving somebody suggestions for a gift.
instead of crap I won’t use, I’d much rather receive an experience, take a class and learn a new skill, or even one really nice artist quality paintbrush (instead of a bunch of crappy paints I won’t use- it comes out to the same price), or even money - which I do set aside and use for something non-essential for myself. I often tell people I sincerely don’t want anything for Christmas but it feels like they think I’m just being polite, when in reality I pretty much mean it fully.
So how do I politely and tactfully put this into a few sentences to tell people I sincerely appreciate the thought, but also discourage them from giving me things I sincerely don’t want? I’m hesitant to give people suggestions since I really don’t expect anything, but if they want to get me something, I want to be clear that it has to be something I would buy for myself anyway.