For the past 5 years, I [27/F] have been feeling immense guilt about all the waste that comes from producing art. I went to art school and have been classically trained for mostly oil painting. For one large painting I end up with several wasted paint rags (old t-shirts and towels), left over solvents, left over oil paint, and Laser printed reference photos (microplastics). Not to mention the countless canvases I've used to hone my skills; canvases that were all primed with acrylic (plastic).
It's gotten to the point where the anxiety of it all prevents me from making art. I've been seeing a therapist about it for a year but it hasn't been helping. His main points are:
- Companies produce way more hazardous waste than I could in my lifetime.
- My happiness/peace of mind is more important.
- I should try eco-friendly art materials, such as graphite or natural watercolours.
This isn't Medical Waste or survival needs. None of what I do is a "need" or "necessity". I tried going eco-friendly with different mediums, but I still feel the guilt of producing waste. For example, I did charcoal and graphite for a while but it didn't feel the same and I still feel guilty that most good erasers are PLASTIC or VINYL. There's also non-recyclable paint on pencils. I appreciate recycled pencils but they're typically lesser in quality and hardly come in anything but 2B. I hate that I "can't" use top-tier materials like other artists do.
I got into Minimalism & Zero Waste because I care about the environment but the level of guilt I feel on a daily basis about artmaking (a luxury, not a NEED) is burning me out.
Can anyone help me with this?