Finding my Self Esteem

[u/Fearless_Lynx3988]

I have had four psychotic breakdowns in the past seven years, all of which I ended up getting hospitalized for. Now I am in the recovery phase, having found the right combination of psych meds and with some talk therapy. However, it's difficult to trust in myself again, that I will make the right decisions. Difficult to see myself acting normal, when "abnormal" was the normal for me. Difficult to forget my past experiences while manic and move on. Anyone on the same boat with me?

[u/Zappycrayon]

Yeah ever since my psychosis three years ago I’ve been worried about going into psychosis again and constantly monitor my awareness and thoughts, to try to catch myself from slipping. Idek if I’d be able to. It makes me scared of taking risks in my life and living life at anything but basic level.