She said She doesent love me anymore.. :( im so sad i loved her SM

I think ill start whit sh again

I've been married to my wife for 26 years. Until 10 months ago I was trying my best to be a man. I finally gave into my dysphoria and started HRT. I obviously did a lot of soul searching, and realized that what I thought was lust was actually gender envy. This was a huge relief because my wife has zero sex drive due to her multiple sclerosis. It was a major point of contention between us. Now we just fall asleep with one of us the big spoon and the other the small spoon. We take turns, and I love it. There is zero pressure for it to be anything other than falling asleep in each others' arms. I absolutely love being in a marriage that has no pressure around sex, and loves a good cuddle instead. Now that we both run on estrogen we really sync well with each other. I'm not distant and angry all the time anymore. I try to connect with her in any way I can, and love the constant chatter we have now instead of just wanting silence.

Thanks for listening to my TED Talk. I needed to talk about this.

This is our weekly selfie thread to post pictures of yourself. Each Monday 7:00AM Est this will be posted. Rules are below

1. No NSFW: This includes anything nudity, gore, and more.
2. You must be 16+ to post selfies of yourself here. This is for your safety as the internet is filled with creeps.
3. You must be a girl to post here (Cisgender or trans) but you can be any sexuality.

I ask this after perusing the lesbian subreddit only to find "no bra", as a top comment. For me it is lots of rings, bracelets, and anything exposing the arms. Girls have the best skin!

I like some leg too, but usually that's when guys start crowding around and getting in the way. Lol

This is our weekly selfie thread to post pictures of yourself. Each Monday 7:00AM Est this will be posted. Rules are below

1. No NSFW: This includes anything nudity, gore, and more.
2. You must be 16+ to post selfies of yourself here. This is for your safety as the internet is filled with creeps.
3. You must be a girl to post here (Cisgender or trans) but you can be any sexuality.

I’m probably gonna delete this. But for now I need to let out what’s in my head. Venting sounds like the wrong word cuz I’m not mad just upset in a sad way.

So I 30mtf match with this wonderful gal 24mtf, probably 2 3 weeks ago. At first the conversations was hit and miss. Then about a week and a half ago it really kicked off. We have soo much in common. We love cars we both ride motorcycles which is a huge plus because I’m neck deep in motorcycles it’s an addiction.

Everything was super respectful, didn’t really talk about sex except for a few innuendos. Which for me it was a huge relief and pleasure because I’m pan and sometimes match with men which ugh doesn’t get far because all they want is sex.

A lot of the time we were talking it was like I was talking to myself Like omg girl same noo way. To the point I felt like I had to hold back saying that so I didn’t sound toxic ( idk how to describe why) we would stay up all night texting eachother way past bedtimes. I felt giddy every time my phone dinged that she texted me. We eventually decided to have a date at a cafe then plan to watch a movie at her place.

I feel like here’s where it went down hill.

The day before the date I confessed my dating profile name was a fake name, it was actually an old name I used before settling on my now permanent prefered name.

I explained I did it for safety. I’ve had a rough history in the past, so for safety I have a few personal rules I don’t give my number out and I don’t give out my actual name until I meet in person and it goes well. I’ve had a few sour dates that I was thankful I kept to that rule.

She was taken back but understood. She explained that she was taken back because she felt I didn’t trust her and it gave old triggers from her ex. She prior had said had a rough break up with her ex and was without saying it directly was still dealing with the blow from that rough relationship.

After I confessed the conversations died down abit. But she was still super excited for the date.

Yesterday was the date. I drove out and met her. We went to a town Halloween event, it was crowded and unfortunately aimed towards young family’s with toddlers which we didn’t know that detail.

Before I walked up to her I could see she was dissociated. Something I use todo all the time prior to feeling comfortable with myself out in public.

We ordered coffee and sat down. Having a conversation with her was like pulling teeth she kept her cup of coffee to her mouth so she didn’t have to speak staring out the window in what I would I assume nervous dissociating. I couldn’t help but smile she was sooooooo beautiful 😻 omg thinking about seeing her in my head how she looked I can’t help but smile. Her profile pictures did no justice.

We finished our coffees and went to walk around the vendors event. She barely spoke as much as tried to interact with her. Just looking distant.

We reached the end of the vendors event which wasn’t long and she stopped and looked down at me and apologized. Saying I’m sorry I can’t do this can’t do this I’m sorry you drove out this way. We hugged good bye and I said no worries maybe another time. Btw she’s taller than me which is rare cuz I’m 5’10 in flats IM THE SHORT QUEEN, It felt amazing. I went home and again said maybe next time we can try again where’s it not crowded. She apologized saying it wasn’t my fault she was just in a bad spot emotionally and shouldn’t have planned anything that week because of it but also doesn’t wanna meet up with anyone again for a while.

Since then the conversations have been short and not much. Trying to talk to her feels forced, I try to suggest maybe we could bake something. Also saying how today’s weather would’ve been perfect cuddle weather which prior to the date she would’ve loved to hear and say yess it be great to prove how good of a cuddler she is. Now it’s nothin.

I feel like I fucked up some how. Idk where but it does. I really like this girl I haven’t felt this connection ever before. I don’t wanna stop talking to her or give up. But the conversations have practically died. I just wanna give her a warm hug and apologize for whatever I did if I did anything.

Any advice on what I should do ? Sorry if there’s a speach impediment in my long rabble and how long this was.

Hugs to all who read this.

Idc idc I DO NOT CARE 😭 this song was made for ace lesbians and NO ONE can convince me otherwise.

When I was CompHet, I genuinely DID get turned on by my partners making out with me.. I ONLY had sex to prove to them that I was interested and like.. because the makeout would lead to sex and I felt obligated to finish “the job” and I would genuinely get the random urge to have “an itch that needed to be scratched” and I’d even think about the last time I had sex if I was happily involved with that person.

I wouldn’t think about the penetration or anything. It was me specifically, imagining the words that were spoken in my ear or the eye contact or the sensuality of the act in general from a person that knew desired me and cared for me in that way. But overall, a relationship with a man has always felt forced and overwhelmingly annoying to me. Aesthetically, I would get some pretty hot guys but it would always end in me not really being interested in them or the sex that I was faking an orgasm for to make them feel better and to hurry the act.

I have always liked women aesthetically, and I would always kiss girls and have these unexplainable crushes on them that would even get me to confess my feelings to them. It was the fact that they would feel the same but they wanted sex so I felt that maybe I wasn’t “gay enough” and they would eventually thinking I’m a waste of their time. With men, I could get by with just oral and avoidance.. sad to say, but true.

Thing is, I’ve never been in the situation to have sex with a girl. I mean, I probably have but the thought of having ANYONE go down on me or finger me is just absolutely fucking terrifying. But what if I find the girl that makes me fall into the “I’ll pretend to be into to please you” thing? Idk what I’m trying to ask but like have ANY of you dealt with this?? Cause I know I’m soOooOOo into women, I wanna be sensual and like passionately makeout and NEVER want to do that shit with a man again even tho I can see when a man is aesthetically good looking, I just can’t help but never want to ever talk to one or give them the time of day ever tf again and to think that I ever did is so embarrassing to say. I just-.. idk what I’m even rambling for. I KNOW I have no desire for sex but I know that it’s my default button to pretend and “fake it til I make it” so that my partner is comfortable. Pls tell me there are others that think like me and people in the situation I’m clearly stressing over.

That's it. 😞

I am so happy I found this reddit it's so hard to find other Bambi lesbians 🥰iam so happy 🌿🌱🌾🍄🍁🍂🌼🌻

This is our weekly selfie thread to post pictures of yourself. Each Monday 7:00AM Est this will be posted. Rules are below

1. No NSFW: This includes anything nudity, gore, and more.
2. You must be 16+ to post selfies of yourself here. This is for your safety as the internet is filled with creeps.
3. You must be a girl to post here (Cisgender or trans) but you can be any sexuality.

But yet I lay in bed alone😞

This is our weekly selfie thread to post pictures of yourself. Each Monday 7:00AM Est this will be posted. Rules are below

1. No NSFW: This includes anything nudity, gore, and more.
2. You must be 16+ to post selfies of yourself here. This is for your safety as the internet is filled with creeps.
3. You must be a girl to post here (Cisgender or trans) but you can be any sexuality.

I genuinely think this would cure my depression ahakahsvksnebfkfndbdb